Favorites and Daily life?

Hmm... the favorite...as long as there is no talking....the subtle mind.  I have never just fallen asleep like that...for no reason...it still sparks laughter in those that witnessed this event!  Even for me!

I have many things that I keep tucked in my hat that i will get out on that down time. Who am I trying to kid?  Yeah I have no real down time, the phone rings that can change my whole afternoon or week, even a month...depending on what that call reveals.

The loving kindness as well works well...when they do not talk...lol..but I am partial to the spirit.  I still give more than is in the account sometimes...but it is always returned in many other ways...Giving to me is a way that we can show and prove that there are many different kinds of love out there that allows us to show compassion to others.  Feel bad that you see someone with a flat tire...stop and ask you need some help? or maybe a phone call to a service that can assist you...in case your family can not make it here to help.

Despite everything that I have endured this year, I still willingly give up my friday nights to potentially spend with someone I have never met.  I met them, sometimes on the worst day of their life so far.  Giving information to help them in the next 24-72 hours.  That can make a difference of the lifetime.  What is this?  I volunteer for victims of sexual assaults.  This is not a pretty thing...this is not something that others are comfortable with...its violence...against men and women....but through the compassion and love...storing my anger away to show family that we are here for this loved one here...they need you here not in jail...know what storms are coming....give the love...and you get so much more in return.  I could give stats on things...how it works with and without a advocate there in the most critical hour...but that is not what this is about...this is about showing the love to this person I have never met...let me give you comfort, compassion, and understanding now...pay it forward to others...give til it hurts sometimes...but allow that person to feel the need of being special, loved, and forgiven....we need this in own lives...the personal touch we put on a gift...a text to make a friend laugh...let them share it with someone you may not know...you are still touching others...and showing love...love without boundaries...

sorry about the rambles...but it is something to think about...we all touch each other...whether it is physical or not...tolerance is nice but acceptance is needed...

Thanks for listening to the ramblings of the mad woman! have an awesome week

The meeting.....

At the beginning the tears began to fall...my mentor my wise man has always been my dad (he has passed on)....once the direction was given for the beam of white light to emerge from his head (it was already there) and allowing the light to penetrate my mind...there was sense of calm....not really sure what to think of the light from the throat....we were the jokers of the family....so there was a bit of laughter here...our hearts will always be as one....the compassion, love, and kindness is something that he taught me as an adult....his comments were that I had already had these traits ....and to let my heart not the mind guide me...and to share these qualities with everyone that I meet....and to extend and give them to my daughter so that she may flourish in compassion for others as well....I am my father's daughter....in thoughts, compassion, and heart....

I know that the instruction is necessary but its still annoying....

"One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself"  

If you have not had the experience to some degree then you cannot give assistance to others who are wanting or needing to travel.....If you have visited a grand sight...and I have never seen it...I cannot give any thoughts or experiences that is needed....I cannot see this if I have not been there myself.

If I ask someone to engage in mediation...I need to have done the exercise myself...if I have not...then I cannot give the instruction or assist in the control of the emotions that may surface.  

I need to be able to give guidance in a very difficult time in a families journey.  If my spirit is damaged, in need of healing, or rest I cannot give them the comfort they need to proceed in the next step of grieving and eventual healing from the loss of the family member....If I am not of sound mind...how can give a sound calm to the storm?  It is not possible....I know that my mind, heart, and spirit are tired...but never tired enough to guide others to an understanding of the loved ones passing, their love that was witnessed in the ones that were left behind....I do this because I have had to  do the same to myself...my dad was a very kind, compassionate, gentle man...that has helped me even after I lost his physical presence....he is always with me...always giving me new ways to express to others that their love remains even after their bodies have left....

The Assessment....oh my

The assessment that I have been working on was a bit delayed this time...there have been a few very negative aspects in my life..but I am determined to make them a positive...and here I am...

I am in need of the psycho spiritual aspect at this point.  I am really down on myself for not meeting my own expectations, disappointing to others, and working to the point of mental and physical exhaustion.  I need to define not only to myself but to others my needs met as well.

I find that I am a very giving person, and giving to a fault.  I give to family members, friends, and others more than I have to offer, mainly my time.  I love that I am able to help.  I still need other family members to step up and take over...they are just not complying with the need.

Nearly lost my brother two weeks ago, there are so many items that I could really go into detail with that...but not to bore or give that much info in this forum.  The doctors believe that my uncle has lung cancer again.....he nearly lost his fight earlier this year...and my husband lost his job.  This has been an unbelievable year for me....my spirit is in dire need of a time out so that I can regenerate, recharge, and renew...as in the mythical phoenix.

I hope that you all can forgive my lacking performances as of late...as I have turned many of these items to others....I still bare most of the responsibility....and another positive aspect....my husband may have found a job...if only we can get his truck from the repair shop....its been there three months now....

I still need for my spirit to heal so that I can continue with helping others....my strongest point is that I manage to help others despite my personal storms....it is also a down fall....

Returning to a still and quiet mind has been a life saver as of late....and thank you for you patience there...

The Loving-Kindness I tried again...this time despite the aggravation that I have with this one (all of the talking) I was able to give more than before...and release some of the burdens that I tend to carry alone...release of the pain...my physical...and to give to others healing...the ones that I have issues with...well that one I will need to work on...but I see karma in that state...back to the topic...I did have more emotions that were expressed this time as I played my music and kept the words in my mind of the release, healing, loving thoughts sent through the up lifting music....

The Subtle...zzzzzzz....mind

The subtle mind was a difficult one for me.  There were so many distractions that I was unable to give the proper amount of concentration to the exercise...at first.   Then after threatening to add the extra heat ( hot pepper) to dinner tonight....nah really just had to put the ears in and close my eyes.

This still took a little doing but finally managed to do the exercise.  Well I fell asleep!  This is amazing that I was able to let things go to that extent.  Even from the events of the day.  My husband asked if I had a good nap....lol

The loving kindness allowed me to relax...then the subtle mind...I suppose that I finally just let everything go...even though my nap was short I have not felt that rested in years...

I also let a friend of mine listen to it to see if she could gain some relief from the stress that she has in her life at the moment...maybe not sleep...but a rest from the stress of the her day.  The exercise gave her a sense of calm, then I gave her her my normal listening medicine!  Now we shall see what she thinks! ahh ha...she enjoyed the spirit dreams as well....almost fell asleep listening to it!  It has such a calming effect on her as well..

I believe that a calm mind and spirit is essential to help guide those in very difficult situations.  Meditation allows the mind to relax, gain perspective on difficult problems, allowing the mind to find solutions that may not have thought of before.  When the mind is free...the brain can relax...the mental stress can be put aside...and the physical well being can be gained....the decrease in the stress can decrease the chance of high blood pressure, in turn can lower the chances of heart disease...and the decreased reasons for stress eating...these are only a few of the benefits that can come from allowing the mind, body and mind to relax and decrease the amount of stress that is placed on the body on a daily basis.

Music Requests ......

Music to relax by....or I do!  

Wolf magic http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3aGdePbTTA

 Spirit Dreams http://www.last.fm/music/Tomas+Walker/Spirit+Dreams

 These were requested by some of the students in the class...and so that you can enjoy the music...

 This one of the celtic of the highlands that you can sample the music...


 http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/johnmockmusic3

Ahh the Experience

Ahh the Experience....

This particular relaxation exercise was not like the chore the past exercises seem to have been.  I welcomed the distraction as there have been a few new ripples in my life...this weeks exercise seem to be better...I was able to relax a little more..but I still hate the "instructions".  I know this is supposed to help me with direction of the exercise, the road that I am to follow...with that said..I was able to relate with the music this time, it must have been the flute that was used.  This is similar to the music that I listen to now.  I still have a difficult time relating the first exercise subtle mind.  The second one was a bit more difficult..as I have several of my family that is ill...and it seems that my heart is very heavy.  

THE WORKOUT.....

The concept of the mental workout...hmm if we are able to relax and clear the mind...release the worries that seem to clog the mind..that we can let go of the hurt..pain ...and frustrations that come with life.  

After the mind is clear, relaxed and free of debris of the world, we are better suited to make difficult decisions, focus, and allow the body to release the toxins that come with stress that may lead to premature illness and disease.

 

Reflections

Reflections of my physical wellbeing will be a bit lower than it should…about a 5..I have to get my body back to healthier state…Feeling run down, tight, and a bit more of me than I would care for…My spiritual wellbeing…3…I really had to stop and think about this one, after the major losses that I have had to endure in such a short period of time has really hit me hard.  Thinking about my life, choices that I have made, and some that I wish I could turn the clock back.  As it is now, I stand by those…that at the time with the information that was available I still believe that the correct choices were made.  Psychological wellbeing…3...this is another one that I needed to ponder.  I have been having more difficulty than I would care to admit when it comes to some of the issues I have faced in the past.  I know that it may have been some years ago with some, but the impact has lasted longer than it should have.  I guess that is my fault for the lack of guts to hit the situation head on.  But it was just not me that I had to think about.

I have set several goals for the physical issues that I am faced with, if it’s going to get better (or worse) I have only myself to blame…I have adopted a shelter dog, and we have started out with slow walks and time outside, we have to take it slow since he has had “the operation”  and I have to be careful of the length I walk….do not want to re injure the foot or knee!!  Not even going there….just insert a little giggle for yourself here….spiritual goal, I need to let God heal my heart.  I have so many that depend on my guidance to place their loved ones final days with me, and to help them with the process of the loved ones last journey, and to help them continue with their own is a difficult one…Allowing myself the time to heal…so that I can continue to help others…psychological..ahh yet another place I would rather not go…but if I must…I shall…reestablish the connection with my counselor and get on board with a plan that is more proactive, than allowing myself to retreat back into those dark places we only hear about.

 The physical, I am starting (again slow for a couple of reasons) to start working toward a healthier lifestyle all together!  But that too must start with that difficult first step.  The spirit...allowing myself time to recharge….time for myself to meditate and pray to allow God to work more in my life so that I can overcome the challenges that he has brought to my life.  Psychological……this remains like a stick in the mud for me…..I wish I could let things go or find ways that I can confront what is truly running me scared! 

I really tried this…several times…it was so frustrating…I know that his voice is supposed to be relaxing but I just cannot get to that happy place with this guy talking!  So as I have done before I have popped in one of my CDs (Spirit dreams or Wolf Magic) and allow my body to relax with these visions that are created in my mind’s eye as they play.