Favorites and Daily life?

Hmm... the favorite...as long as there is no talking....the subtle mind.  I have never just fallen asleep like that...for no reason...it still sparks laughter in those that witnessed this event!  Even for me!

I have many things that I keep tucked in my hat that i will get out on that down time. Who am I trying to kid?  Yeah I have no real down time, the phone rings that can change my whole afternoon or week, even a month...depending on what that call reveals.

The loving kindness as well works well...when they do not talk...lol..but I am partial to the spirit.  I still give more than is in the account sometimes...but it is always returned in many other ways...Giving to me is a way that we can show and prove that there are many different kinds of love out there that allows us to show compassion to others.  Feel bad that you see someone with a flat tire...stop and ask you need some help? or maybe a phone call to a service that can assist you...in case your family can not make it here to help.

Despite everything that I have endured this year, I still willingly give up my friday nights to potentially spend with someone I have never met.  I met them, sometimes on the worst day of their life so far.  Giving information to help them in the next 24-72 hours.  That can make a difference of the lifetime.  What is this?  I volunteer for victims of sexual assaults.  This is not a pretty thing...this is not something that others are comfortable with...its violence...against men and women....but through the compassion and love...storing my anger away to show family that we are here for this loved one here...they need you here not in jail...know what storms are coming....give the love...and you get so much more in return.  I could give stats on things...how it works with and without a advocate there in the most critical hour...but that is not what this is about...this is about showing the love to this person I have never met...let me give you comfort, compassion, and understanding now...pay it forward to others...give til it hurts sometimes...but allow that person to feel the need of being special, loved, and forgiven....we need this in own lives...the personal touch we put on a gift...a text to make a friend laugh...let them share it with someone you may not know...you are still touching others...and showing love...love without boundaries...

sorry about the rambles...but it is something to think about...we all touch each other...whether it is physical or not...tolerance is nice but acceptance is needed...

Thanks for listening to the ramblings of the mad woman! have an awesome week

The meeting.....

At the beginning the tears began to fall...my mentor my wise man has always been my dad (he has passed on)....once the direction was given for the beam of white light to emerge from his head (it was already there) and allowing the light to penetrate my mind...there was sense of calm....not really sure what to think of the light from the throat....we were the jokers of the family....so there was a bit of laughter here...our hearts will always be as one....the compassion, love, and kindness is something that he taught me as an adult....his comments were that I had already had these traits ....and to let my heart not the mind guide me...and to share these qualities with everyone that I meet....and to extend and give them to my daughter so that she may flourish in compassion for others as well....I am my father's daughter....in thoughts, compassion, and heart....

I know that the instruction is necessary but its still annoying....

"One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself"  

If you have not had the experience to some degree then you cannot give assistance to others who are wanting or needing to travel.....If you have visited a grand sight...and I have never seen it...I cannot give any thoughts or experiences that is needed....I cannot see this if I have not been there myself.

If I ask someone to engage in mediation...I need to have done the exercise myself...if I have not...then I cannot give the instruction or assist in the control of the emotions that may surface.  

I need to be able to give guidance in a very difficult time in a families journey.  If my spirit is damaged, in need of healing, or rest I cannot give them the comfort they need to proceed in the next step of grieving and eventual healing from the loss of the family member....If I am not of sound mind...how can give a sound calm to the storm?  It is not possible....I know that my mind, heart, and spirit are tired...but never tired enough to guide others to an understanding of the loved ones passing, their love that was witnessed in the ones that were left behind....I do this because I have had to  do the same to myself...my dad was a very kind, compassionate, gentle man...that has helped me even after I lost his physical presence....he is always with me...always giving me new ways to express to others that their love remains even after their bodies have left....

The Assessment....oh my

The assessment that I have been working on was a bit delayed this time...there have been a few very negative aspects in my life..but I am determined to make them a positive...and here I am...

I am in need of the psycho spiritual aspect at this point.  I am really down on myself for not meeting my own expectations, disappointing to others, and working to the point of mental and physical exhaustion.  I need to define not only to myself but to others my needs met as well.

I find that I am a very giving person, and giving to a fault.  I give to family members, friends, and others more than I have to offer, mainly my time.  I love that I am able to help.  I still need other family members to step up and take over...they are just not complying with the need.

Nearly lost my brother two weeks ago, there are so many items that I could really go into detail with that...but not to bore or give that much info in this forum.  The doctors believe that my uncle has lung cancer again.....he nearly lost his fight earlier this year...and my husband lost his job.  This has been an unbelievable year for me....my spirit is in dire need of a time out so that I can regenerate, recharge, and renew...as in the mythical phoenix.

I hope that you all can forgive my lacking performances as of late...as I have turned many of these items to others....I still bare most of the responsibility....and another positive aspect....my husband may have found a job...if only we can get his truck from the repair shop....its been there three months now....

I still need for my spirit to heal so that I can continue with helping others....my strongest point is that I manage to help others despite my personal storms....it is also a down fall....

Returning to a still and quiet mind has been a life saver as of late....and thank you for you patience there...

The Loving-Kindness I tried again...this time despite the aggravation that I have with this one (all of the talking) I was able to give more than before...and release some of the burdens that I tend to carry alone...release of the pain...my physical...and to give to others healing...the ones that I have issues with...well that one I will need to work on...but I see karma in that state...back to the topic...I did have more emotions that were expressed this time as I played my music and kept the words in my mind of the release, healing, loving thoughts sent through the up lifting music....